I've GOT to sleep. Everything is affected by no sleep. I've made some silly decisions. I over-worry. I know I am borrowing trouble. It's been an odd week of birthdays and craziness, loneliness and busy life.
I see myself doing things that surprise even me. The change is perhaps not as dramatic as it could be, but it's there. I don't know if my vision has changed or if it no longer exists at all. I feel this drastic pressure to make everything come together, yet I know I can't.
I am reminded of the old adage, "If you don't know where you're going, any train will get you there." I need to regroup and think about where we're going, where we want to be, how we're going to get there. Right now, I have no idea.