Ronan

We played this one at William's funeral on his slideshow.  This one brings both happy and sad feelings.  Of course it makes me think of that horrible, awful day.  But it also brings those precious memories to mind...his love of cars, his magical, tinkling giggle, his hand in mine, the thankfulness of my time with him.  It also reminds me of his fearlessness.  He was never afraid of death.  He longed to see Jesus.  He talked of seeing Pappaw.  When he was in the hospital he would ask if he would die this time, but it was never out of fear.

My favorite line of this song is, "I remember your blue eyes looking into mine, like we had our own secret club..."  William's eyes were brown, but oh, how I can relate to this line.  He would look up at me and lean into me, like we were the only two people in the world and he was sharing this special, secret moment just with me.  My heart aches desperately with missing him.

Lyrics:

I remember your bare feet down the hallway
I remember your little laugh
Race cars on the kitchen floor
Plastic dinosaurs, I love you to the moon and back

I remember your blue eyes looking into mine like we had our own secret club
I remember you dancing before bed time then jumping on me waking me up
I can still feel you hold my hand
Little man, even from that moment I knew
You fought it hard like an army guy
Remember I leaned in and whispered to you

Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
You were my best four years

I remember the drive home when the blind hope
Turned to crying and screaming, "Why?"
Flowers piled up in the worst way
No one knows what to say about a beautiful boy who died

And it's about to be Halloween
You could be anything you wanted if you were still here
I remember the last day when I kissed your face
I whispered in your ear

Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
Out of this curtained room in this hospital gray
We'll just disappear
Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
You were my best four years

What if I'm standing in your closet trying to talk to you?
What if I kept the hand me downs you won't grow into?
And what if I really thought some miracle would see us through?
But what if the miracle was even getting one moment with you

Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
You were my best four years

I remember your bare feet down the hallway
I love you to the moon and back