"Cause me to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning, for in You do I trust;
Cause me to know the way in which I should walk, for I lift up my soul to You."
Psalm 143:8
Thursday, April 21, 2016
When You Come Back
I feel like there's not much I know anymore. Everything is so uncertain. I want to once again believe that everything will work out and be alright eventually, but it's hard to get there. I despise living in fear. But it's so hard not to. Impossible actually. I can only control my reaction to it. Sometimes, it's just too much to let go. I want my children to be free and fearless, but I also want them to be safe and secure. The other day, Michael told me that he thought maybe they could ride their bikes to the pond and back, but then he realized that I would never go for that. Do I over protect to a detriment? I can't bear the thought of an accident. I need help to trust.
Lyrics: I don't know how to follow you Without losing my way Jesus, come and take me by the hand I don't know how to trust that you Will do the things you say Spirit, teach me how to understand That your love can heal The wreckage of my soul The beauty of your light shining in me I don't know when you'll take me home To paradise with you The day when I will finally be free Oh, the day when you come back for me
What began as updates of William's daily life as seen through the eyes of his mother: about deafness and learning to hear with cochlear implants, blindness, breathing issues, mobility, and more...became one family learning to walk through their deepest sorrow when William flew home to heaven on October 18, 2015.