Breathe

This is a strange life I am now living.  What used to come so easily, now requires great effort.  My faith used to be such a natural, easy-going part of me.  No questions.  No doubts.  No reservations.  Just a child-like trust.  Honestly, I miss that.  I miss the naive life I used to live.  The one without daily heartache, without the daily struggle to trust God, without the constant holding back of tears.  I want to trust Him.  I have to trust Him.  But there is a continual struggle between the need to understand and the faith to step out without needing to understand.  I reached out to a friend who has been walking this lonely road of grief for some time.  He said he tries to look at it like God gave him a gift he didn't deserve for 15 wonderful years, rather than God took his daughter after only 15 years.  I know it's true.  I have to continually remind myself how thankful I am to have had 8 years with William.  I wouldn't trade them for anything but the grief still threatens to overwhelm.  I have to get to that quiet place where I am alone with Him and He can wrap me in His peace and His love, where I can breathe...

Lyrics:

Alarm clock screaming bare feet hit the floor
It’s off to the races everybody out the door
I’m feeling like I’m falling behind, it’s a crazy life
Ninety miles an hour going fast as I can
Trying to push a little harder trying to get the upper hand
So much to do in so little time, it’s a crazy life
It’s ready, set, go it’s another wild day
When the stress is on the rise in my heart I feel You say just

(chorus)
Breathe, just breathe
Come and rest at My feet
And be, just be
Chaos calls but all you really need
Is to just breathe

Third cup of joe just to get me through the day
Wanna make the most of time but I feel it slip away
I wonder if there’s something more to this crazy life
I’m busy, busy, busy, and it’s no surprise to see
That I only have time for me, me, me
There’s gotta be something more to this crazy life
I’m hanging on tight to another wild day
When it starts to fall apart in my heart I hear You say just

(chorus)
Breathe, just breathe
Come and rest at My feet
And be, just be
Chaos calls but all you really need

(bridge)
Is to take it in fill your lungs
The Peace of God that overcomes
Just breathe
Let your weary spirit rest
Lay down what’s good and find what’s best
Just breathe

(chorus)
Just breathe, just breathe
Come and rest at My feet
And be, just be
Chaos calls but all you really need
Is to just breathe
Just breathe