Even When It Hurts

This meme hurts, but it is so true.  We are all different people.  My children have lost the mother with a positive outlook who laughs freely, trusts easily, and has the calm assurance that all will be well.  She has been replaced with a mother who knows...

At any moment she might be called to walk through the darkest valley.  Again.

The new mother views everything through the tainted lens of deep, deep sorrow.  The belly laughs that once came so easily are replaced with soft, melancholy smiles.  The simple trust has been replaced with a struggle to trust my heart to One who can so quickly crush it,  The calm assurance that was once such an easy part of daily living has been replaced by a moment-by-moment personal chant, a reminder to myself..in the end, Love wins.  Death is conquered.  The grave is empty.

I have a personal prayer request.  I cannot share what it is.  It is about more than just me.  It is not something I will share, nor will anyone else in my family.  But it is a struggle.  A heartache upon heartache.  We are hunkering down together.  For those of you who are praying for us, thank you.  The prayers are still greatly needed.  If we are more withdrawn and less forthcoming, just know that we are hurting.  And your prayers mean so much...

Lyrics:

Take this fainted heart
Take these tainted hands
Wash me in your love
Come like grace again

Even when my strength is lost
I'll praise you
Even when I have no song
I'll praise you
Even when it's hard to find the words
Louder then I'll sing your praise

I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise

Take this mountain weight
Take these ocean tears
Hold me through the trial
Come like hope again

Even when the fight seems lost
I'll praise you
Even when it hurts like hell
I'll praise you
Even when it makes no sense to sing
Louder then I'll sing your praise

I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise

And my heart burns only for you
You are all, you are all I want
And my soul waits only for you
And I will sing till the morning has come

Lord my heart burns only for you
You are all, you are all I want
And my soul waits only for you
And I will sing till the miracle comes

I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise

Even when the morning comes
I'll praise you
Even when the fight is won
I'll praise you
Even when my time on earth is done
Louder then I'll sing your praise

I will only sing your praise