There's been so much going on and we've been so very busy that you'd think I am just moving on. But I'm not. Forward, maybe.
But there's never an event we attend or hospitality we show where I don't think, "God, I sure wish he was here. He would love this..."
I still cry almost every day. I still long to hear his voice. My arms still ache to feel his little body wrapped up in them. My heart still feels shattered.
But even in the midst of all the grief that is so prominent, I am so very, very thankful that I got to be his Momma. I'm grateful that I had 8 and 1/2 years to show love to that precious boy. But now I have the rest of my lifetime to find a place for that love to go...