I Will Trust You

I'm leaving for New York in the morning.  Well, in a few hours, really.  I'm having difficulty breathing and I feel nearly crushed by the weight on my heart.  The thought of something happening to one of my children while I'm gone nearly cripples me, even though I know I have no power to protect them, really.  Even though Michael will be home with them, I feel fear threatening to overtake me.  I am forcing my heart to trust Him and sometimes I need more prayer than other times...

Lyrics:

I don’t even want to breathe right now
All I want to do is close my eyes
And I don’t want to open them again
Till I’m standing on the other side

I don’t even want to be right now
I don’t want to think another thought
And I don’t want to feel this pain I feel
But right now pain is all I’ve got
It feels like it’s all I’ve got
But I know it’s not
No I know You’re all I’ve got

And I will trust you, I’ll trust you
Trust you God I will
Even when I don’t understand
Even then I will take in
You are my God
And I will trust You

God I’m longing for the day You come
When this cloudy glass I’m looking through
Is shattered in a million pieces
And finally I can just see You
God, You know I believe it’s true
I know I will see you
But until the day I do

I will trust you, trust You
Trust you God I will
Even when I don’t understand
Even then I will take in
You are my God
And I’ll trust You

And with every breath I take
And for every day that breaks
I will trust you, I will trust you

And when nothing is making sense
Even then I will say again
God I trust You, I will trust You
I know Your heart is good
I know Your love is strong
And I know Your plans for me
Are much better than my own
So I will trust You, trust You
I trust You God, I will
Even when I can’t see the end

And I will trust You
I will trust You, I will
Even when I don’t understand
Even then I will say again
I will trust You
I will trust You, I will
I know Your heart is good
Your love is strong
Your plans for me are better than my own
Yeah Your heart is good
Your love is strong
Your plans for me are better than my own
And I trust You
You are my God
And I will trust You