Changes

It’s time for the trail ride again. This year is so different. I don’t know if it’s because we rescheduled it or what it is, but it’s just not the same this year. I don’t feel excited or happy to see anyone, I just want to get it over with. I feel tired and overwhelmed.
We are also looking at donating his monument. I just can’t look at it anymore. Several of us feel that way. I’m not sure what we’ll do with it but I’m ready for it to come down.
I am ready for change. Something different. Something other than the dance between life and grief...