This is why I continue to write on William's blog. It's why I pour out my deepest, darkest thoughts and feelings.
So often, I hear Christians, well-meaning and loving, comparing how others grieve or proclaiming one grief to be "godly" while tsk-tsking another. I wanted other grieving Christians to know they are not alone.
They are not wrong for grieving.
It doesn't make them "less" Christian.
It means they loved deeply. They still love deeply.
Finishing the race well doesn't mean we never doubt or question or wonder or get angry or weary. It simply means that through all of that, we continue to seek Him, praise Him, follow Him. It means that when we have doubts, we cry out, "Lord, I believe...help Thou my unbelief."
Scripture is full of hurting, grieving people. I love the examples given to us. They weren't perfect people with perfect responses. I think of Job, blameless and righteous, and the trials he faced and how much he grieved. I think of David and the Psalms, which are full of his grief and crying out.
Grief is a heavy load to carry.
This is the valley.
Let Him show you how you can lay this down.
You are not alone.