I have a difficult time dealing with the world around me at times. It's an odd feeling for me because it's new. I can't engage in the fight as I used to. It overwhelms me.
I used to be so zealous. Everything mattered and I could see a reason to stand up and fight against undesirable things. Now it's all I can do to stand up on my own two feet and step forward.
There have been so many things going on around me that once I would have jumped in and done my part. Politics, current issues, government overstep, vaccine mandates, GMOs, etc, etc, etc. At one time I could have taken a setback and bounced back to fight harder. Now I just feel defeated.
I look at the erosion of freedoms in our country and I just want to retreat. Withdraw. It's discouraging that so many people are gladly accepting and encouraging loss of freedom for their own personal agendas. I must summon the courage and desire to fight on. For the sake of those who come after me...
I miss him so desperately. I miss who I used to be. I miss the naivety of a life with unmarred joy.