Some Days...

I have been sitting here, staring at the blank screen, for far too long.  I do not know what to type.  I try so hard to be open, to be transparent, to not hold back.

But sometimes it's just more than I can do.

The last few weeks have been really hard.  Prepping for class has been overwhelming this time around.  Yesterday was excruciating.

And I'm angry.

I really want to lash out.  It is so hard to control my anger sometimes.

So I retreat.

Not always physically, but emotionally.  I just check out.

Somehow it seems better than the alternative.